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Ella’s Adventures

March 18, 2017
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Ella Bella, you are a consistently busy girl with a schedule full of love. I wanted to share with you a little glimpse of the kinds of things you do with the people you get to spend time with.

(Thanks to everyone who shared their Ella Adventure pictures with me, and on Facebook!)

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with Mome Martin

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with PaPa Sanders

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your hang out spot at Uncle Matt and Aunt Alexz’s

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Fashionista Ella!

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Shopping with Papa Sanders

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Homemade play dough with Aunt Becca!

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with Aunt Becca and Reese

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Raincoat, Bebe, and tights

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watering plants with Mome Martin

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Play dough animal sculptures with Mome Martin

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back porch hangs with Aunt Becca and Uncle J

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Movie date with Mome Sanders

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Dinner date with Mome Sanders

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Princess tent reading time with PaPa Martin

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art work at Uncle Matt and Aunt Alexz’s house

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Mom is Fifty-Something!

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I can’t keep track of my parents’ ages anymore. Mostly because I can’t keep track of my own age. I’m still in my early thirties, that’s all I need to know. I spent a solid two weeks mentioning to people that I was 33. As it turns out, I’m still 32. Huh. So, how old is my mom now? 53? 54? 55? Fifty-something is adequate, right?

I organized an outing for Mom’s birthday. We took a wine glass decorating class at Wagon Wheel Wines in Canal Winchester (recommended to me by one of my co-workers). The wine was delicious AND I didn’t even really mind how my glass turned out! Usually when I attempt something crafty I am horrified by my finished product and I’m tempted to give my two-year-old all the credit. But THIS time- not to brag- but it could easily pass as fifth grade art work.

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Mom and Sandie, whom I love and am consistently thankful for. Thanks for making the drive yet again from WV to celebrate Mom, Sandie!
(My fat snowman wineglass is on the left.)

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Mom’s other friend, Missy joined us. She is a very sweet person and I’m glad to have met her!

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Mom and her gals

 

Love you, Mom!

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Another Year Passed

February 25, 2017
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I gladly welcomed Year 2017 and Age 32.

(This girl loves being photographed:)
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(This boy, not so much:)
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32 Feels…

Exhausting. Still. And a little more isolating than I’ve felt in previous years.

I am doing this project for myself: (not necessarily with the hope or expectation that my children will want it and cherish it, but just in case they will) I am printing the entirety of my online journal into hardback books year by year. I have to go through each month of each year to edit out all of the cuts in order to do so, so I am revisiting all these events I’ve recorded with my family and with my friends, and remembering how close I felt to them, and how secure I felt in my relationships. Little by little, over the years, that security as been chipped away because of one thing or another… I no longer feel unconditional support or love. I’m no longer honest and open about my life-my joys, my hurts, nor my disappointments. I’m leery of everyone. I bottle things up. I keep secrets that aren’t my own but that effect me greatly. And I deal with everything all by my damn self, largely because I don’t know who to go to.

32 also feels passionate. Motherhood is a saving grace. It gives me a strength I can’t seem to procure from any other source. It gives me the selfless determination to improve whatever situation I can, for my children’s sake. I keep going for them; I continue to care for myself and my life because there are little, beautiful, innocent people that depend on me to make the most of each day. And I love those little people so much my chest aches with it. My family is my everything, and my happiest moments are when we are all together. I feel so fortunate to be their mommy.

32 finds me taking delight and comfort in the little things. I love Grandview and its homes and holiday decorations, and the neighborhood pets that greet the school children on our morning walks. I love opening the curtains to allow the sunlight in my home, and opening windows at night for the fresh cool air. I enjoy organizing the closets and choosing outfits for my kids. I like watching Doctor Who while I paint my nails on the bed. I like being silly with my husband and hearing my kids laugh. And I enjoy the rare occasion I allow myself a warm cup of coffee with flavored creamer, or a fountain soda with ice in a styrofoam cup, or a glass of good chilled wine.

I also have a lot of personal and family goals I’m working toward, one day at a time. It feels good to have direction, a “big picture”, and attainable hopes and dreams for our future. There is a probability that Keith and I will grow our family by +1 while we are still in our thirties. But we both decided that once we reach 40 I’m gettin’ a tummy tuck and Keith is hittin’ the gym and our forties will be all about us! We’re gunna go to movies, take road trips, have dinner dates, and drink fancy cocktails in jacuzzis! (We remind ourselves of this on the days Ella whines nonstop for 3 hours straight, and then inevitably bashes her head on the corner of a piece of furniture the moment she settles down.)

But for now… 32 is all about raising a young family that is growing too quickly. It’s waking up early every morning to get them where they need to be, and crashing in bed late after tucking them in and kissing their foreheads. It’s about missing them all work week, and forgoing date nights on the weekends to be home with them. It’s about trying to witness every milestone, and being eternally grateful when loved ones relay milestones missed. It’s kissing booboos, wiping snotty noses, enforcing Xbox schedules, and eating drive-through treats in the car while the toddler sleeps in the backseat! It’s an endless stream of worry, frustration, and pride. It’s fast-paced, it’s flying by, and I’m hoping to not take this phase of life for granted.

32 is hard, but it’s good.

 

 

 

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Some Christmassy 2016 Photos

February 12, 2017
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[I am sorry to the people that did not make it in these photos. It was unintentional. …Namely Rebecca and my mother, who seem to have eluded the camera when I was taking photos (I think they were beside me on the couch); and The Martins because I must not have gotten my camera out when we saw them.]

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This gift of Jacob’s was perhaps one of my favorite things about Christmas this year. Back in 2011, Jacob and our boss at work- Robin- started a prank battle with these creepy AF caroling Christmas dolls.
THE STORY IS HERE:
Battle of the Caroling Dolls
When Jacob left his job at The Village, he took one of the caroling dolls with him with every intention of getting the final prank in–maybe even years later when the time was just right he’d take the doll back to The Village and leave it where Robin would find it. The topic would resurface every now and then over the years, and he would confirm his plan to do so.
Well, this year Dad gave a package to J and told him it was NOT from him.
When J opened it and received a caroling doll for Christmas I could not stop laughing. FIVE years later Robin beat J to the punch and remains the prank master.
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Well played, Robin!

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Ella Turns TWO!

February 11, 2017
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On November 4, 2014 The Martin Family lost a baby and gained a toddler.
That morning we woke up and went to Amy’s Donuts
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and Eleanor enjoyed every last bit of icing on her’s.
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She was also treated to an apple and a sucker at the grocery store.
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And she celebrated life and autumn and sunshine by dancing in the leaves at Grandma and Grandpa Sanders’ house.
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Several days later we had a small family party for yummy cake and a few gifts.
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Aunt Alexz made the cutest, most delicious cake!
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And the day after she partied hard, she laid back and read through her birthday cards.
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Ella Bella,
You are such a spirited little girl- so full of life! You are also tough as nails. You’ve been through so much in your young life, and you take everything head-on. I will never forget the time two big, strong male nurses and myself gathered around your bed at Children’s Hospital prepared to hold you down to get an IV in your tiny arm. You were frightened, but you didn’t look away, nor did you cry after the initial prick. …Or the time I put you in the bathtub and took the shower head down. It got loose and hit you in the belly and sprayed ice-cold water on you. You screamed and I whisked you out as fast as I could and held you against me to comfort you, and just a minute later I asked if you were ready to try to take a bath again. You said, “okay”, so I put you back in the tub. You were so nervous you were shaking. You kept your eyes peeled to the shower head, but you didn’t back away or cower when the water came back on. Instead you went up to it and held out your trembling hand to test if it was safe. Baby Girl, I admire your bravery!
You love BeeBee (your baby doll), stuffed animals, and doggies. You have recently begun to let us read books to you! (I love that.) You dance and sing ALL the time, and you like to organize things/put things back where they belong even though you are a tornado that leaves a trail of destruction everywhere you go. You also LOVE to color-even yourself, the walls, and Grandma and Grandpa’s floors and furniture.
You have a mind of your own and you’re difficult to keep up with. (I mean, you really wear us out, El. You are exhausting.) But I am excited to realize the things you are capable of accomplishing with all that energy and determination when you are older! (I just keep reminding myself of that, haha.)
I am so thankful you are part of our family.
I love you very much!
-Mommy

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Halloween 2016

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I finally got a new computer! Hooray! Despite the amount of our savings that Keith’s temporary unemployment ate through, I decided to bite the bullet and invest in a MacBook Air. I was going to wait until after tax returns until I realized I do my own taxes, and… I need a computer to do taxes!

Now I can play catch-up on all my holiday photos.

First: Halloween

Halloween was the most enjoyable holiday for me this year. I was sick on Thanksgiving, and Christmas was the most stressful and depressing Christmas I’ve ever experienced in my life thus far… In terms of circumstance-induced anxiety and depression, it even surpassed the year I had the miscarriage Christmas Eve through Christmas morning. (I am better now.) (Man, it felt good just to write that out, even as vague as it is. I’ve missed journaling.) BUT Halloween was such a sweet, enjoyable holiday for me. I’m glad I made the most of it.

We did our annual Friendship Village of Dublin retirement home Trick or Treat.

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Eleanor used the Max from Where The Wild Things Are costume that Adry’s Grandma Ellwood made for him when he was just a bit younger than Ella was this year. It’s a bit too short for her. But still adorable. Adry was a Civil War Union Soldier. (NOT a Confederate Soldier, for heaven’s sake. That’s a good way to annoy Adry!) His costume was made by his Grandma Ellwood as well.

We also tried a Trunk or Treat in Hilliard for the first time. I loved it so much I’d like to keep it a tradition.

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Uncle Sam told Adry that his costume was the most authentic he had ever seen and wanted a picture with him.

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And my kids enjoyed Beggar’s Night in Grandview, too. Adry got to trick-or-treat with his school buddies while Keith and Grandma and Grandpa Martin spent hours walking with Ella house-to-house up and down Grandview residential streets. I joined them when I got off work. We spent the last half hour at the Grandview library playing games, winning prizes, and getting our picture taken.

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Park of Roses Pictures

October 22, 2016
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We attempted to take some family photos at Park of Roses, and it was a largely unsuccessful experience that involved both of the children crying 75% of the time. Eleanor skinned her knee, then skinned her knee again, then face-planted the ground, then fell again. Adry was overwhelmed by the pressure to be still and smile. But I still like the pictures Dad managed to capture in the in-between moments… I love my family, even when we are NOT picture-perfect! ♥

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