And again.February 22, 2012
When you spend weeks feeling A-okay about an awful situation. And you think, hey! I got over THAT fast! Maybe I’m just used to this. Maybe I’m better at healing and moving on. I’m totally ready to move on. Which is surprising, but I’m okay with feeling okay!
Until it hits you.
You’ve been in Grief Stage: Denial.
And you’re coming out of it.
And it hurts.
So. So. So bad.
You realize your subconscious has been telling itself that this is only temporary. That things will go back to normal. And it’ll be like nothing happened.
And until now you never came face-to-face with the fact that what was is dead.
I am so sad. I’m sad that my “family members” seem to be falling like dominoes. I’m sad for what we’ve lost.